But how do we do this without so much anger and resentment for the beautiful gifts of joy in which we call.. fears.
To complete our cycles we must come into NEUTRALITY.
For most of my life, I felt the need to FIGHT.
Fight against everyone, everything.
My ego was never satisfied, my mind always wanted more, I was in constant activity and strife.
The pain turned into suffering, as I felt a need to control all things, all situations, all people.
Never a dull moment, rather.. never a quiet moment. The perpetual addiction to “everything” resisted my realization of “nothing”.
Forever, there was a core just waiting to be tasted. A fruit of unmatched taste. The blessing and gift in which is bestowed upon us all, was a divine realization waiting for my arrival.
As I look, and as I see, in clarity, it is the avoidance of our withdrawal in which we shall ultimately face. The fire in which seems so large to small eyes, but ultimately insignificantly small to the eyes of the infinite creator.
This void space, where all is at peace, all is one, all is whole, because one is in need of nothing. One is desire-less, though one is connected to the highest desire. The desire of the manifestation of their highest self, their expanded self, their divine self. This is the truth, it is the truest truth, for nothing shall get simpler than just BEING as you are knowing the path in which is unfolding for you.
Trust, faith and surrender seem to not coincide with a mind, an existence, a life of FIGHTING. We are not here to fight, we do not need to battle, we need to make peace. First with ourselves, then with the other.
Know you truth, know your path, know your essence and it all shall be gifted back to you in clarity.
This whole “You are your own Guru” thing is quite interesting.
As I deep in my devotion to a true master. One who does not “teach” but gives direct experience, I recognize deeper and deeper the need for a physical master as the utmost importance in ones spiritual quest.
This has only come in the direct relationship to the release from my own ego.
As my ego arises at any point during my experience, my devotion and recognition of the obvious master-disciple relationship begins to falter.
Coincidentally ( lol) I sink into old habits, patterns and cycles of suffering.
As I walk the path, I am teaching what it is that I am coming into direct experience with. It is the reason why the teachings have come so far compared to the “book knowledge” much of it was in the past.
I am recognizing my limits to my students in humbleness to the vastness of this journey, and in that I step out of the trap of “you are your own guru”.
There is truth to this on absolute level.
We are all one, we are all coming from source, and we are all enlightened at the seed of our awareness.
However this is similar to “faking it till you make it” – its needed, but what is also needed is some humble pie to recognize there is deep level action required and necessary for you to walk the path.
Part of this is the devotion to true master or energy in which is guiding you through the depths of infinity.
The truth in all simply being a mirror for you is of highest importance.
When I sit with someone 1on1 I can ONLY be a mirror, as I can only give back what I have truly experienced, and on a deeper level, I can only give you back what YOU have experienced. This is the reality and limit to perception itself.
We are here not to be slaves of any master, however we are also here to recognize and be humble to the TRUE masters who are simply here to serve us. They are already in a space of liberation, they are here in recognition and oneness that you also connect to that liberation, and it is your divine birthright